8:16 p.m. - Demcember 16, 2004
If My Mind Will Just Stop Racing...
Jeeze...school. I HATE it! It's about time that I get a break, and I am so ready for it. I am so ready to be AWAY from that crap. Especially Algebra. I had a test today that I completely guessed on...I have no clue how to do that crap. But the good news is, I'm off for the next six days, and I'm damned and determined to ACE the final. I will ace that final if it's the last thing I do. I'll definitly do it though. I THINK I CAN I THINK I CAN. hahaha. It's imperative that I do ace it, because if I don't, then I'll be getting an F for the course this semester. I shouldn't have let myself get in this situation, and I know it has nothing to do with work, and everything to do with my capacity to understand mathematics and my work ethic in that class. It's kinda hard when you don't understand ANYTHING, and it's always been like that for me.
Anyway, on with other matters...
It's funny how the people at work are in a bind because they all of a sudden can't find people to work. Shouldn't have fired a cashier/cart attendant! Oh well...serves them right for doing that to him. It turns out that he WAS warned, but he was warned like 4 months ago and verbally. But he was warned, that was the thing. Also, he told people that he could tell that I liked him, and he even asked Lauren about it. Another thing Sean told me was that he's in a realtionship, even though it IS a weird one, and yeah...oh well. It's best to forget about it. Sean has my number now and he was like, "I'll call you this weekend and I'll have him talk to you." They're hanging out on Saturday, so maybe they will call. We shall see. I'm not getting my hopes up but, who knows, maybe I'll get to talk to him again. The first thing Sean did yesterday was hug me, and I told him that I felt bad because I knew that I'd probably never see him again. He said that that was like saying that he'll never see him again, and that it wasn't true. I gave him the Christmas card I wrote Josh and he said he'd give it to him, and I hope he doesn't forget! It doesn't matter, because if they do call and I do talk to Josh, it'll be that much more difficult to forget about him in the long run. He always has this way of sucking me back in after I think I'm almost out of it. And I bet you guys are REALLY sick of hearing about it, especially Chelsi, and I sincerely appologize. It's almost over, unless he calls this weekend, which I'm not counting on at all because they are guys and you know they are...
Almost there, going nowhere...
Later on,
Paige
CURRENT MUSIC: "Somewhere In Between" by Lifehouse
